sehkh

hey all... i just bought myself an emily strange hoodie... the one with the kitten mittens and the kitty ears. why. cuz i love cats and im a psycho... and i love cats. in other news i have a gf... me ... a gf... HA! yeah im still in shock myself. but shes the best. she makes me feel like a giddy teen i again. i dont think thats a good thing. but its a feeling i have not had in a very long time. its sad that we cant see each other often... im lucky if i can hang out with her an hour a week. shes just so busy with school and work. the most time we spend together is online. which is really sad but i know things will get better in time. mygrandmother is now back from the hospital and its not going over well. i got so used to not having to share the house with anyone plus only having to take care of myself that its hard to transistion into being in charge of another life. esp a life thats not getting any better as say a child. there is only one out come to this... and its a grave... which is extramly sad. ive taken care of my dying father and now my dying mother. such a cruel existence. perhaps its making me stronger for something. or maybe i was just an evil son of a bitch in a past life that i have to suffer with watching death over and over around me. oh wel to all my WoW friends im sorry i have not been on. i hope to join you guys again soon. life is still just kicking my ass