the long awaited return post for those that don't care

AHHH FUCK FUCK MOTHER FUCK
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Some times I wonder what it would be like just to be all famous and what not. Be the big rock star. A bachelor for ever. A womenizer to the truest. I bet I could be good at it. You know be on the cover of magazines. Have people talk about how well I do things, but on the flip side of that I wouldn't want that. By being on that level of stardom, people assume that they have the right to know everything about my privet life. No one has that rite. Every secret, I don't think "fans" should have that rite, yes what I choose to relase is ok, and that would be most of everything, as long as someone asks the questions, I'll answear them.
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Right now I just feel emotionaly charged, in a bad way. I feel like theres just something inpure in my thoughts and feelings. Not impure sin, but impure in the fact that it has a negitive affect on me.
I hate yelling at people, especially the ones I care about. I yelled at Maria today, like full voice, no controle, just bad stuff man.
I'm frustrated with her, I'm frustrated with my self and having the smae problems in major relationships, I'm depressed because my band has no choice but to move on while I'm in the south. I can't even play the fucking guitar. Even now I'm getting upset that I'm bitching on this post. I feel like an emo kid specially saying I feel every two words.

Anither thing thats a stupid thing to bitch about, I can't even find music that fits my mood right now, and that just a pain in my ass
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I don't like being alone, like just physically. I don't like being home alone, never have, never will
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I'm all druged up after my surgery, my finger hurts, but I am feeling better emotional.
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I've decided to move to Pittsburgh