I'm writting here because I don't really think any one will see

I'm tired of this life I'm leading...but I don't know how to change it
I'm tiered of being depressed as hell...I can hide it so well, but its always there
and I hate feeling emo for just wanting to write some thing out but social sterotypes are coming down on me
I'm 21 and lost completely
I work with all these high school kids or kids in their first or second year of school
I don't fit in, but I can have fun and pretend I'm ok


I think I just relized why I was thinking bout high school tonight...work is just like high school was....me jumping around having fun and as soon as I leave its back to being depressed as hell
its all an act, and its wearing me out

I feel like I don't know how to act my own age, but its been so ong since I've just chilled with peopel in my peer group
the only people I ever meet are ones I work with, now they are to young, before they weren't the type of people i'd chill with
in RIchmond it was family ...everyone getting married, and that sets them apart from me, and I didn't get along really all that well with the other kids... I was raised to diffrently

I need a good cry or something