sega_____

I am SO sick of him. Last week I was feeling pretty good but guess what? Yeah he's come back and ruined all that. I was happy cos he handed his notice in at work so after 4 weeks of seeing him 2 evenings and a saturday at work I wouldn't have to cope with seeing him anymore. But no, that's not good enough for him. He's started fucking FULL TIME for those 4 weeks to earn more money til he leaves. WHAT THE FUCK. What does he have that he needs more money for??? NOTHING! It's so fucking unfair, I used to enjoy my work (to a certain extent) cos he wouldn't be there and I could forget about him, now he's there every single fucking day. He's already taken away the enjoyment I got from going out in the evenings because he goes to the same pubs and clubs, now he's taking my work as well. I tried to explain that to him (in the form of a lot of shouting at him) but he doesn't care. He says he doesn't like seeing me upset.....so fucking LEAVE ME ALONE, fucking cocksucker. It's not fair cos I, unlike him, have bills to pay. I, unlike him, have a horse to feed and look after every month. and I UNLIKE HIM do actually have to stay at work until I find something else and I don't even know if I want to leave because I have some really good friends there that I probably wouldn't be able to see if I left.
I'm so fucking sick and tired of caring about him and I wish to God that I didn't love him anymore. This is wearing me out and I wish it would stop being SO FUCKING HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't know what to do. I hate him so much but I still love him.