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arrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I knew it was too good to be fucking true.

I went out last night planning on having a pretty good time...met a few old friend I hadn't seen in 2 years, then met my friend Jem (who was home from Newcastle) and took her to rock city (her first time lol). Had a pretty good couple of hours until Adam turned up.
I saw him dancing with his mates and having a great time...so of course I started feeling miserable. He saw me and came over and started talking to me, saying of course he still loves me and he misses me so much (in more than one way...) so of course I start crying cos now I feel like I'm right back at the fucking start. I was moving on last week and feeling good and now it's all turned to shit.
We went outside and he was telling me how amazing I am and how anyone would be so lucky to have me. He said I don't understand how amazing I am and he thinks I don't need him. Alright so maybe I don't need him, but it doesn't stop me wanting him and wanting to be with him. He says he's doing this (i.e. breaking up with me) for my own good because he doesn't think he was any good for me.... but how the fuck is this meant to be doing me any good???? He says that we weren't being ourselves with each other when we were together... I don't understand what he's thinking! He thinks that by leaving me he can make me happy!! WHAT THE FUCK!?

Where the fuck did everything go so fucking wrong???

edit - plus..... I'm officially a social reject. Saw Nicotine at City (only briefly) and cos I'd had a shit night I think I was a bit retarded and not very talkative and then had to go get a taxi on my own cos my "mate" fucked off without me. So Nic....sorry!! If you're out next week I'll see you then and wont be a complete moron...

Here's a pic Jem took before the night got crap...