secretly_dead

2 more poems ..not really poems just babble

i thought about you last night before i went to bed.
about how great it would be to get to spend a night next to you.
to feel your heat, and breath on my chest.
seeing you first thing in the morning.
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last night you grabbed my hand
and told me you loved me.
told me...
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Shitty poem ... cuz i suck at writing

well if im your birthday present.
then you be my christmas present.
with a red ribbon in your hair.
waiting under my tree for me to see.
i'll come to you im my Pjs,
and take you to my room to play with.
and love you forever.
my greatest gift.

so tired. didnt get to bed till 4 am. then my mom called me at 830. to tell me to make sure to shovel the drive way and be careful today. which was nice of her. but not at 830 in the morning then again at 1130. not fun. i love snow just not in my driveway. work yesturday sucked. this kid i liked just...
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god damn it i wrote this real long entry in here last night but forgot the hit save entry. im such a dumbass. to summarized. last night hung out with sarah watched elf. had indian food. played with hampsters. i get home and my bunny is sick. so i went to walmart to get food and vitamins and they had it blocked off. so i...
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went to no turkey thanksgiving din din. it was fun. met some nice fun cool kids. ate lots of food. and acted goofy alot. but what else is new. hahahahahahaha yea im done

well i got my car. i love it. it's a 86 toyota corolla (not 84) and its blue. very cute. also the greatest thing happened tonight. i wrote this about it.

Promise...

i sing those words as best i can.
and you sit, look at me, and smile.
i tell you "i love this song".
and you snatch my hand.
then make it the happiest...
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well i think im getting a car. 84 toyota carolla. haha my cars keep gettign older and older. i started with a 87 then 85 now 84. ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh man. im gonna be barrowing moolaa from my grammy and grampy

not having a car still sucks. i have a nap date tomorrow at 3:30. and i have no way to get to my friends house. this sux balls sax

my car died today. i seized the engine. funny thing was i was just on my way to get oil. just my luck. so now i have no car for work or hanging out. kinda sucks. but things are actually going good for me. besides that

one day is a lifetime of pain

i was i could write like i used too.
before i fell in love.
love ruined my writing and ruined me.
now when i write it sounds like a 12 year old girl.
i want to be able to express myself in words again.
i want to be in love again.
and lose it all over again

my rat died the other night. it got sick from a mouse i think. there was a half dead mosue in her cage i think they fought or something. but not im guinea pig sitting. and spooktacular is the cutest.

my pet rat died last night i went to feed her and she was dead. and i dont knwo how it got in there but there was a half dead mouse. i was so pissed last night. how the hell coudl a fucking mouse kill my rat. what teh fuck.