secretly_dead

i think im gonna try to write a 10 min play or something

so i have been trying to quit smoking.... for real this time.
i had 2 yesturday, and 3 today. so thats 5 in 2 days... i think its good. the real test is tomorrow. i cant buy a pack if i do im never gonna quit. i have been rolling my own. and making them really small. i deciced fri night. i was really stressed...
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so last night i hung out with my bud and got drinks

heres the pics
http://www.livejournal.com/users/secretly_dead/148243.html

every night when i go to sleep

i lay really close to the wall
so i can feel my breath
and pretend its yours

i sleep right at the edge
so there is enough room for you
but im always sleeping alone

when i wake up from a bad dream
i turn around to cuddle you
but your not there

i roll up in the...
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I FORGOT TO POST THIS EARLIER
The Armenian Genocide was carried out by the "Young Turk" government of the Ottoman Empire in 1915-1916 (with subsidiaries to 1922-23). One and a half million Armenians were killed, out of a total of two and a half million Armenians in the Ottoman Empire. Most Armenians in America are children or grandchildren of the survivors, although there are still...
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when i was a lil kid i used to love skipping stones.
i would spend hours looking for just the right stone,
and then skip it across my pond.
it would skip so far and i would get so excited.
the only thing was that i could never get that stone back,
and would have to go back to looking for a new stone.

hung out with jenn yesturday. well i baby sat her roommates kid then hung out with her. it went really well. we got coffee and made dinner and watched the OC. i mean as much as it sucks knowing that its over its still good to see her and hangout with her. like im not the type of guy thats gonna hate someone cuz they...
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"So take a look at me now, well theres just an empty space
And theres nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face
Now take a look at me now, cos theres just an empty space"

so jenn and i broke up.... i dont know. i know its always rough at first to liek get over it but this just sucks....
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i realized tonight that no matter how bad and how hard you try you will never fit a square peg into a circle hole.

so me and jenn broke up for good. basically things just have not been the same for liek amonths and it was better to just end it before things got ugly. we just wanted totally different things. it does suck but...
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why have i been in such a wierd modd lately. like my day starts off and for the first 5 mins im in a good mood then for the rest of the day im in like a super deressed mood. i just know something bad gonna happen. all ways does when i get like this.

so i got a letter in the mail today telling me i failed to show up to a court summons in aug..i got a letter TODAY for not showing up to court in AUGUST! any way it said my lic. was gonna be taken away if i didnt clear it with the court house for $100. so i went there and and i owe $433!!...
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I woke up this morning and wasn't who i was yesturday.
Tomorrow i will wake up and not be who i am today.