secretdesire

I Am Darkness

I'm alone in the dark.
Its cold and oh so painful.
My body aches to be free of this dark and terrible place.
Even in my dreams this darkness haunts me.
Its always there.
Lurking.
Cold.
Wrapping its icy fingers around my throat.
I ache.
I shiver.
I'm lost and frightened.
I search and search but the darkness surrounds me.
Darkness and pain.
The pain never leaves me.
I wish with all my being that it would.
I dont want it and I can't handle it anymore.
Occasionally I see a sliver of light.
My heart lurches.
Yet I always trip and fall further into darkness.
The light.
It always evades me.
Glimpsed but never found.
Teasing me.
Each time leaving me in crushing darkness.
Pushing in from every angle.
Its dark ache spreading through my body.
Weaving and clawing.
Its black murk clutches at my spine.
Its grip becomes tighter and tighter.
Wrapping itself into my every fibre and sinew.
It invades my body.
It takes what's mine.
It invades my every thought.
Until all thoughts cease.
The pain is all consuming.
Just pain and darkness.
I am pain.
I am darkness.
I am nothing.