secretagenman

I am back at home.
i am seeing friends, it is nice, for those who i invited to come to the 4th of july dealy, it is still going on, if i did not invite you, it's prolly cause you didn't ask to come, so please do =-)
i just found out that my ex had been cheating on me for 3 out of our 6 month relationship.
..bitch.

i have been replaced as a swim coch...not too bad, it's ok, I wanted more money, he wanted to be a greedy bitch, no worries there.

here is my problem.

i have no clue where my girlfriend is.

she has a dangerous job, she is the last living person in her family line and has a bit of nobiltiy in her blood, she keeps peace between feuding old people in ireland and other european couintries, and in doing so travels alot.

i haven't spoken to her in nearly 2 weeks, which is fine, we usually email each other, she has not answered an email in almost 2 weeks, nothing, no phone, no way to contact her, and she is the only one left, so how do i findo ut what the fuck is going on?

i am going nuts...
if i look at the worst, she very well could never contact me again if anything happened to her, and i would never know, this is driving me absolutely off the fucking wall.

i am biting my nails, i want to know what is going on.

that is why i am looking forward to the 4th...it will take my mind off of it.


arggg!


i just want her to be here, that's all.

or at least an email or phone call.

not too much to ask is it?


alright i gotta go.

love you all and stuff of that sort.
-justin