sebau

So the birthday horrays have worn off and here I am in the "omg I'm almost 30". I'm still young dammit but I'm single... I think I am a nice good person with lots of diverse interests but I haven't been asked out in like 8mos! I don't have any friends that are my own age that I can spend personal time with so I stay home and clean, paint, write or just sit on the computer. I have made friends with people that I work with but that seems to back fire on me. Rumors start or people get personal mixed with business and everything is more complex and stressful at work. Especially with this possible promotion comming up. I now have to take a test on Monday for it... how lame, I basically do everything my boss does but I have to take a test to prove myself. I guess it's just mandatory paperwork.

I miss going out and having fun... Fun what's that?? Playing computer games? Given I had super amounts of fun on my birthday but that was like the total amount of fun for the last 6 months.
I feel like a lonely little girl that walks to the end of the block and just calls out, "friends... friends.... is there anyone that would be a friend?" Ah ... how pathetic I must sound. Am I simply ungreatful? I should just be happy for what I have. Bad naughty evil feelings of depression! Oh cruel heart! Where is the love in my life?