sebau

I feel the weight of the past month hang upon my shoulders this very night. I know that I only have a few days, if my insomnia will allow, to sleep and get rested for this Halloween weekend. So far, my plans are not definite. My Darkest Darling talks of coming to LA, but he seems vague. unsure. As if he doesn't want to, perhaps? I offered to go to him. But perchance it isn't that he doesn't want to come to LA and see me, or even that he doesnt want to spend every waking moment with me, at least as previously often. I know I am an overwhelming and overbearing woman and I suck the time out of life. At least to me, it seems that when I spend a weekend in SB that the weekend is over so quickly. But when I am enjoying the time, the moment, it pauses. I feel like I am on vacation when I am there. As though I am free without responsibilities. Presently, my responsibilities pull me down like a weightless ton of lead. I cant figure out whether to sleep or to work

I cannot wait until I am slung in my web with my spider, again.

Photographs blink like slides of every moment of our time shared.

I miss my Darkest Darling, yet He is ever present......