Haven't had much time to update. So here's a quick rundown.
My computer is mostly fucked after trying to replace the defunct cable modem. I couldn't get the ethernet connection to work so I tried it with the USC connection, which means I had to turn ON my USB connections in the CMOS setup. They were turned off because of my unique DMAN soundcard, so my sound no longer worked and neither did the cable modem. I turned the USBs back off once I couldn't get the modem to work, then, at least, my sound came back. But things are running ssllowww and locking up A LOT. ugh. If I try to pull up Norton Antivirus, it literally takes ten minutes to get to the main screen. I need a new computer.
Last night Aethy, her daughter, her daughter's friend, and I saw The Polar Express, which was a wonderful Christmas movie with surreal, beautiful animation. It will definitely live on as a classic Christmas movie for a long time to come. Very charming. Here's the shocking part:
2 adults & 2 kids evening movie tix: $28
Drinks and hot dogs: $20
So much for movies being an inexpensive leisure activity. I mean I didn't expect cheap, but fifty bucks?! And movie companies wonder WHY we download their product off the internet instead of taking a loan out on a theater experience. Sheesh.
I continue to struggle with songwriting. I guess I'm so painfully aware that every guy my age with a guitar is a walking cliche, that I'm just a little paralyzed by how ordinary and ALREADY DONE my whole schtick is. It's a vicious circle that I need to find a way out of. I'm so self conscious about being cliche that I just can't seem to produce anything. So I've decided discipline is the only way I'm going to make music. If I do it twice a week every week, then perhaps I'll get in the practice and head-space of songwriting again. I've gone weeks without touching my guitar and it's just too easy to let it go like that.
The winter is imminent and I'm already ready for Spring. I can feel some of my bones ache and that slow, mollasses-like torpor fold over me like a thick blanket. I think back to summer- the energy, the sunshine, the vitality and I just don't see it in winter. It's just an attitude though. I know that if I let myself truly see that I'll discover that winter and cold makes us more vital as we push against it all with our warm bodies and thoughts.
Overall I'm thankful and feel pretty good about things. I have the sort of mind that find reasons to be unsatisfied no matter what is going on. So I have to keep that in check. I have a woman that loves me, I have (just) enough money to live, I have music in my life, I have friends across the country that I miss and love, I have a family that is just about as close to perfect as you can get, and, most importantly, I have my health. My creativity is in there, buried beneath some old boxes. I just need to dust it off.
Here's to you, my little loves.
-s6
My computer is mostly fucked after trying to replace the defunct cable modem. I couldn't get the ethernet connection to work so I tried it with the USC connection, which means I had to turn ON my USB connections in the CMOS setup. They were turned off because of my unique DMAN soundcard, so my sound no longer worked and neither did the cable modem. I turned the USBs back off once I couldn't get the modem to work, then, at least, my sound came back. But things are running ssllowww and locking up A LOT. ugh. If I try to pull up Norton Antivirus, it literally takes ten minutes to get to the main screen. I need a new computer.
Last night Aethy, her daughter, her daughter's friend, and I saw The Polar Express, which was a wonderful Christmas movie with surreal, beautiful animation. It will definitely live on as a classic Christmas movie for a long time to come. Very charming. Here's the shocking part:
2 adults & 2 kids evening movie tix: $28
Drinks and hot dogs: $20
So much for movies being an inexpensive leisure activity. I mean I didn't expect cheap, but fifty bucks?! And movie companies wonder WHY we download their product off the internet instead of taking a loan out on a theater experience. Sheesh.
I continue to struggle with songwriting. I guess I'm so painfully aware that every guy my age with a guitar is a walking cliche, that I'm just a little paralyzed by how ordinary and ALREADY DONE my whole schtick is. It's a vicious circle that I need to find a way out of. I'm so self conscious about being cliche that I just can't seem to produce anything. So I've decided discipline is the only way I'm going to make music. If I do it twice a week every week, then perhaps I'll get in the practice and head-space of songwriting again. I've gone weeks without touching my guitar and it's just too easy to let it go like that.
The winter is imminent and I'm already ready for Spring. I can feel some of my bones ache and that slow, mollasses-like torpor fold over me like a thick blanket. I think back to summer- the energy, the sunshine, the vitality and I just don't see it in winter. It's just an attitude though. I know that if I let myself truly see that I'll discover that winter and cold makes us more vital as we push against it all with our warm bodies and thoughts.
Overall I'm thankful and feel pretty good about things. I have the sort of mind that find reasons to be unsatisfied no matter what is going on. So I have to keep that in check. I have a woman that loves me, I have (just) enough money to live, I have music in my life, I have friends across the country that I miss and love, I have a family that is just about as close to perfect as you can get, and, most importantly, I have my health. My creativity is in there, buried beneath some old boxes. I just need to dust it off.
Here's to you, my little loves.
-s6