sebast

Hey Mate
how are you dealing with things... have been thinking about you and cant help feeling a tear sometimes at your loss...I have just been through a terrible stage in my own Life as well but I came out the other end of the tunnel when noone , even my best friends ...those that are still left ... thought I could make it and it was a feeling of loss and self hate and all the things you are experiencing. i cant tell you how renewed I feel ..the word TRANSCENDED all of a sudden makes sense because thats what happened to me ..I fought the change for so long that it almost destroyed me...I am telling you the truth ..and in my case it grabbed me by the base of my soul and shook me into submission..only then after being forced to start again did I see the light..Wow...talk about Revelation....now I feel I am 21 again and I can wander the aisles of Suicide Girls with total appreciation and adoration and enjoy the Beauty in life that i almost became blinded to....Losing your Mum at such a magical age is so sad and i commit my Guardian Angel to your care to help you through it... I lost a mate recently to lung cancer about the same age and i feel him around all the time ..often i find myself walking down the street amongst people and i break into a smile because i can hear him talking to me and saying ..its okay mate ..its a new stage thats all.. and its made me feel much more relaxed about the great beyond...
Anytime you want to write and rave I am a good attentivelistener and a loving ear ..Take care Matey...I am thinking about you len xx