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I had a minor break down last night, where I basically cried into my husbands arms for about two hours until I fell asleep with him holding me. Last night I was in immense pain, more than usually. Every couple of days/weeks the pain increases like crazy. It does get very frustrating. I can't even remember the last time that I have been through a day without pain. It is just putting me down. I've been diagnosed for two years, took all the advice-change my ways, lost weight, nothing helps. It sucks, because I am going to live with this for the rest of my life, every day in pain. I was just miserable last night. I'm doing better now, but still a bit sad. Basically it is nothing I can change, I have to live with it, so I need to make the best of my situation. But every day in pain definitely pulls you down.

So in other less depressing news-I've been home trying to keep myself busy. In one of my moods, I went to JoAnns, picked up a couple of items, and this is what I ended up creating:







My girlylicious pirate hat will be going with my awesome bodice. Which is cut and binded, just have t order the boning and grommets to finish it off



The next hat project I will be doing-hopefully-is an Elizabethan tall hat. I'm currently searching for a buckram frame for it, but can't seem to find it. I find buckram hat frames in every other style besides the damn tall hat design! And I really don't want to start from scratch, so I will continue to keep on searching.

In my previous post, I posted about how I am 5 lbs from the 100lb weight loss goal since my surgery. It is so weird knowing that I lost 100 lbs. That is a whole freaking person. Although I am still chunky, sometimes I can't tell the difference when looking at my body. But I do go from a size 24/26 to an 18/20, so there is actual proof! lol. Take a look for yourself:

me in 2009



me May 2010