seanfitz

man have i been negative about everything lately...i can't seem to work up the energy to feel positive about anything...i always feel this way after big art fair weekends...i get so geared up, all the preparations that are involved, and then to have everything go back to the way it was after...like nothing happened, i can't take it...i am getting less patient the older i get...i want everything now...i've waited long enough. sometimes it feels like if it doesn't come now, it's never going to come...plus i've had too much coffee this morning and had to sit through some boring-ass "hoo-rah" meeting/presentation this morning for 3 hours...it's hard to be surrounded by artists and like minds for 4 days and to go back to sales and corporate america...fuckin-a...i have almost nothing in common with anybody i work with...i feel like the only cynic in the room...i thought i was going to be an admissions counselor...developing rapport with students, determining qualifications, doing what was in the best interest of students...instead i an enrollment specialist ie. sales...fuck