scullyt

I'm not really sure. I can't visit her, and she says her phone doesn't get signal so I can't call, so I'm limited to online communication which doesn't reveal much about someone's true status.

I am kind of a jerkface myself. I can't help it. Everytime she and I wind up talking about what is happening, I start crying hysterically, which just makes me mad, so then I turn it around and I get all fucking disgruntled at the world and making incredibly shitty comments that I am sure make her feel like crap, which isn't want I intend . . . I'm just doing the childish "throw a tantrum" at tragedy thing. It is my typical response. But I'm an asshole because it isn't very supportive. I feel like maybe I shouldn't even say anything to her, since I sound like an asshole and she can't see through the computer that the whole time I'm saying this shit I'm fucking bawling my eyes out.

I dunno. I have to go.

YAY! That makes me so happy! I've been feeling that way a lot lately as well!