screw_that

...
I hide my wings inside my soul
And keep them safe and dry
And when the world's not watching me
I take them out and fly
,,,

Looking through some of my old stuff, I found several old letters from my best friend in the world -- Matt Retondo.. whom I haven't seen or heard from in years, but who to this day, remains the one person who has inextricably changed my life.. who gave me both hope, personality, anger, sadness, vanity, humbleness, and a slight case of kleptomania... I miss him more than words can describe, and if I could find a way to find him, I would do just about anything...

..meanwhile... I spent today at my nephew's 1st birthday. He is adorable and I'm so glad that I could come home and be here for this special an event. That being said, my sister invited the guy who singlehandedly helped me to ruin my life -- for the rest of my life... I just have to wonder how she can remain friends with him when she knows how bad he messed me up... I don't understand...

and on another note, I got a new job (thanks to Roxy) and will be starting Wednesday for more than the crappy job I was taking before, so that's good.. money and all that...

Somehow I have a feeling that I've made a huge mistake somewhere recent in my life, or that I'm about to make some humongous error that I can't pinpoint and fix... what to do, what to do?