scrawl

i didn't go to sleep until late last night. around 3am.
i drank some herbal tea that is supposed to help you sleep. it obviously didn't work.

i hate sleeping alone in my bed. there's nothing like a warm body next to you. something breathing and pulsing and real. i need that so much right now. i need the feeling of waking up in the middle of the night with a sense of security in knowing that all you have to do is reach out and someone is there. i long to wake up in the morning with the sunlight streaming in upon my face and feel a comforting arm around me. i fear that that will never happen again for me.

kinda sad that i have no one to share my new heels and nightgown with. once again, i wish i had someone in my bed.

haha. i'm such a sap. had lunch with jace yesterday at bread co. it was really nice. i saw a lot of my old friends from work, and that heathen-bitch tracy, but we won't go in to that.

i fell asleep whilst reading the witching hour by anne rice, although i love that book so much. i guess i was just tired.

twwly's new set came up today. yay! it made my day. i'm at school right now, so i had to do some work to get past the fire walls they put on sites like this. but i am a clever, clever girl so all is well.

i guess i'll go take a nap in class now.

by the way, my bed is still empty every night. and it breaks my fuckin heart.

-scrawl