scottishfox

So. it is only a few days to Christmas. As well as Yule has just passed for my Pagan friends out there. I hope it was a good one for you.

This blog is a lament for things lost. My health(Crohn's Disease), my pride(getting kicked out of the military because of said Crohn's). Innocence is gone. I have been in a relationship for 4 years now, and i can tell you... Relationships are fucking hard.

Due to my health i don't think i will be able to hold a full-time job ever again. That is, unless i can finally put my Crohn's into remission... which i haven't been able to do in the 5 years since getting it.

My whole world was being in the Navy. I was in the Submarine Force, proud to be where i was. I had sacrificed and given of myself quite a bit to be there.


Wow. that was pretty whiny. Note to self. Don't write blogs when you have a fever of 101 for the past 3 days.
I had written that last part, then stepped away to force myself to eat something. came back and it appears that my depression whiny thing was over.
Now i am thankful that when it comes time for me to breed. That since i am on 50% disability for the rest of my life, that i will be the stay at home parent. i will be the one to record those precious things that happens when young ones are around.
While i have to deal with pain everyday. i don't have to give my soul to the rat race that i see my friends doing. In fact. i am usually there to help them deal with that shit.

... I guess the whole point of this blog. I thought it was to be a whiny bitch about things i can't change. Instead it became a counting of blessings. So rock on.