scott

i hope this isnt my fault form all the muffins i used to make.... i was trying to fatten you up so you could never leave me....

chocolate - my eyes love it, my stomach doesn't ... I've lost my taste for rich foods

that chocolate mousse brownie I was talking about the other day - I had to choke it down

I think it may be psychological

I am a coffee, meat & potatoes, rice & beans guy - when it comes to food I like spiciness and simplicity

and then there is the whiskey food group

hey, life is going quite well if i may say so. I have been doing a lot of bizarre hours at work. i've managed to get today and tom off. well deserved i may say!!!
I drove through L.G. today and had to drop something off at the old house. It was the first time i have been there since the last. I waned to cry the I stopped and thought about the typical. I wonder if i were still living here if I would be where i am now,
in life so to speak, would we have split when we did, would i have been with ryan, would i be pregnant and so on and so on. these are always the things i think about its weird. The van is still there along with the hard work we did with the slate planters. the shitty shed with the cow horns,. I dont miss that place at all, it just brought back so many memories.
In other notes of memories i have cleaned out every box and i found all the letters you wrote me, the rose petals i saved( i am sucha dork) i have yet been able to bring myself to throw them out, haha.. maybe im not a dork just pathetic, hmmm, well
it is nice knowing all is well at your end. glad to know u have a traveling buddy, gawd knows i would have never been able to do those rides with you!
talk to you soon...

Last cigarette: Pall Mall unfiltered five years ago or so

Last alcoholic drink:glass of white wine last night

Last car ride: seconds ago from the independent movie theatre in town to the internet cafe

Last hug: this afternoon

Last time you cried: tears of anger, several months ago

Last library book:Profession & Monopoly: a study of medecine in the United States & Great Britain

Last book bought:A season in Hell Rimbaud

Last book read: Jude the Obscure Thomas Hardy

Last movie seen in movie theatres: Jarhead

Last movie rented Crash

Last cuss word uttered:ovaries

Last beverage drank: cucucucucuppacoffee

Last food consumed:chocolate mousse brownie

Last crush: Sally Im

Last phone call: to my psychiatrist

Last e-mail: to my last crush

Last t.v. show watched: local morning news

Last time showered: this morning at the Y

Last shoes worn:Asics Gel running shoes

Last cd played:Ida

Last lp played: Catpower Moonpix

Last item bought:three lp records: John Coltrane, early Bonnie Raitt, and the Sugarhill Gang

Last annoyance: my sister (although we are tight)

Last disappointment: VA may withhold Voc.Rehab. benefits

Last words spoken:" who is running this show?"

Last ice cream eaten: passionfruit sorbet - two weeks ago

she was the first person I saw as I stepped off the Lakeshore Limited into Chicago's Union Station. The first person I couldn't take my eyes off. Everyone called her cowboy, I never knew her real name. I saw her again on several occasions - I never said two words to her.

she was Martin's girl. Martin was an incidental student of philosophy at the University of Chicago - having come to Chicago to play Blues and drink himself to death. A multi-instrumentalist I would often discover Martin blowing jazz on a trumpet in the stairwell of our dormitory - he liked the acoustics. there was something ferocious about the way he played Blues Harp (harmonica). It was Little Walter playing with Muddy Waters who first cupped a Blues Harp to a microphone ........ the swooping lines and percussive honks are somewhere between an electric guitar and a saxaphone

there is this thing that Blues musicians do that is called cutting heads - it's a bloodsport. basically, if you think you are better than the guy blowing onstage you get up and play and let the crowd decide who is best. I've seen Martin start playing from the back of a Blues joint, walk up onstage and blow everyone out of the room

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adangerousthing is me.

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Check the friend's thread. It refers to our Halloween Party.

Thank you

howdy, neighbor.

i miss "dead like me."

scott, its been a crazy full moon. everyone i know has been having sleeping problems. hope that is the root of your insomnia

loved reading your journal.

take care.

yeah it could be the "Clerks" or the restaraunt business, it's pretty funny and they touch upon many things that if you don't work or didn't work in a restaraunt then it wouldn't be as funny. I was affraid it was going to be one of those movies that the previews are the funniest parts but not this time.