scootershitstorm

i've been practicing some anonymous gift giving as an experiment. an experiment in selflessness. this is what can be called hypo manic retard dharma, for lack of a better term. although i just realized that this post totally negates that whole concept



my friend says you have to displace one mental construct with another then not attach to any of them. just realize that these...
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i wanna make friends with the badger.

man, it seems that when shit comes to a head, everything comes to a head at the same time. right now, i'm just past the point of intersection, so things are starting to calm the fuck down. what a ride.

been listening to stellastar*

that shit is good.

ah shit, as an edit, i need to tell a friend of mine that her cigarette smoking...
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the insomnia! the hypo mania! the fury of a feces tantrum!!

all phenomena arises from emptiness and i am tired as fuck. 4 hours of sleep is not enough repeatedly. especially when you have a jobby job where you have to rebuild engines and shit. ahh fuck! where the fuck did that shim go!?! maybe a nap is in order before i have to go...
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life is fucking nuts. it's been a hard but good couple of weeks. lots of shit that's i don't even know what. i'm really looking forward to every day though. with practice, i'm finding out that every breath is a new chance, and a new life; and within that breath is an infinite number of chances. this becomes more poignant in the morning when i...
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tired and grouchy. gettin' ripped off. workin' harder for less and less. i kinda like this system where you can circumvent all this bullshit and ditch these useless efforts and tendencies.

out of step and against the stream.

gonna maybe go out tonight and hook up with some friends.

aloha from t.v. land.

*edited later in the evening*

damn, i feel waaayy better now! got...
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sleepy. just got back from so-cal. when i'm gone i can get a different perspective more clearly from time to time. i am very luck to live in san francisco.

another day. i feel at peace with the world and my heart is filled with gratitude.

okay... today, up early as hell (4:30am). i fucking love getting up early! went on scavenger hunt in the east bay looking for free firewood, fuck yea! got a truckload. got some groceries, rousted some peeps out of bed unannounced to cook them breakfast (i love people who are not uptight). went on to scavenge more wood, and a big ass wedge to split some...
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i think you could pretty much write my biography just by looking at my inbox in my email. i pretty much keep everything for some reason. moments of clarity can come seemingly from no where, they can come when you're pumping gas into you truck. i think that when you shut the fuck up for two seconds and give yourself to the moment of what...
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i'm really getting comfortable within this skin these days.

as an edit almost, there is no good or bad it is neither and both at the same time. it is nothing special and everything at the same time.

i feel elated.