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i believed in things. i was so sure of myself.

i was confident.

the more i learn, the more i realize there are so many things i don't know.

i'm finally admitting to myself i have problems.

i'm starting to understand why she called me selfish.

i'm starting to realize how important self respect is.
and how sometimes i have none.

i'm admitting to myself i have anxiety issues.

i'm admitting i'm not as strong as i think.

i admit i need help.

i admit that sometimes i self medicate.

i don't know what i believe in anymore.

i don't know who to believe in.

i don't know if i can love like i used to.

i feel jaded. i feel hurt. i feel doubtful.

i doubt everyone.

i'm doing things now i never would have done in the past.

....


i hate these moods. i wish i could sleep. i just feel numb right now. i really miss my friends back home. i feel like i could never replace them. i hope i can give them just a small portion of what they give me.