schoolgirl

I've been dazed and confused so long it's not true...

Is life ever going to be normal? Is there really a such thing as "getting ahead?" How do you know who is real? does trust even matter? Is everything going to be alright?

Not knowing is half the fun but sometimes it is more misery than anything. I just want to know what is going to happen and be prepared. I am never this emotional. I am often accused of being cold and having no feelings because I choose to deal with everything matter-of-factly rather than complicated and messy with emotions. But doesn't it just make sense that way?

I could work through and pull off anything. I know it! but sometimes I gotta accept that I really am not a superhero. I am way too stubborn to ask for help and I am way to proud to let anyone do something I can do myself. so why does it seem like I don't have much choice but to swallow my pride?

you have no idea what I am talking about. I will say that waiting for your divorce sucks, work will always be uncertain, and matters of the heart will keep you constantly walking on eggshells.

Yeah, I've been down for the last few days.

From the bottom of my thawing out heart,
all my love always, all ways,
Schoolgirl