I'm so conflicted. I've been wanting to get cosmetic surgery for a while now but I just don't know if I should spend the $5000+ on that soon or use that money to help buy a house within the next year. I'm sure my husband would answer "house" since he thinks I don't even need the surgery anyway. Well of course I don't need it, I want it. I've felt ugly for so many years, and as the days go by, it grows exponentially. It's a good think I'm already married because I sure as shit would never be able to find another person who finds me attractive. Maybe I'll just get a second job.