schmelectra

i got my stinking resolution.

Fuck, dude.
i am so angry.
i am trying really hard to hold the crazy in, but it is getting really fucking hard.
i got a txt from charles this afternoon. he's the crush who mysteriously stopped returning my phone calls. he is who my las journal entry is about.
"So i got back late thursday night. Sorry i did not call while i was...
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take note--

I am SICK and FUCKING tired of being treated like dirt by boys.
DO YOU HEAR ME!?
FUCK OFF!

you get all up in my business, make me think you really like me, and then run away like a little boy.
i don't get it. i really don't .
go screw.

i feel like crying. not for any good reason, i just want to sob.
i think i'm just so stressed out what with school and everthing that i can't cope with any kind of emotion. they all just make me want to cry.
it will be over soon.

i hate soccer.
i love this video.

Things I'd Rather Do...

ugh. drama drama drama!
i HATE drama.
i am sorry.
i didn't mean for things to go down like this.
nothing goes the way i want it to.

to play devil's advocate...
Just because you don't know that did, doesn't mean they didn't.






oh yeah. LOST!

lost lost lost
losty lost lost
best show EVER

not feeling all anxious and weird anymore. that is nice.
i don't have much to report other than apparently i've been forgiven (or something) by the heavy metal librarian. whatever. if he won't be my friend or even engage in some sort conversation (as opposed to shutting me out like he did when we were dating), he can think whatever he wants. i don't really...
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if you could see the way he treats me, you'd know why i'm terrified that he's going to leave me...