schmelectra

i am exhausted.
flat out, down right, beat down.
i wish i never ever had to work.
i love my job, but it is exhausting. i don't know how people cashier all day. i just don't
in other news, i got to hold 17300$ last night, and am currently staring at about 15000. yep.
15k. that is a lot of damn money.
fuck.
i wish i had won that much money.
i just accepted my financial aid award for next term, and that money of adam's is more than my student loans for next year.
yep.
i wonder sometimes if i will ever make it through this, if i will finish school and come out on the other side. sometimes i don't think i will. at about the middle of every term i begin to need to remimnd myself of why i am doing this and how i've painted myself into a corner and can't stop until i can afford to start paying my loans back. i wish it weren't like that.
i'm so funny. last term i sat around moping because i didn't have anything to do except homework, and now i'm moping because i have a social life and no time for homework.
that has to stop. i need to have more discipline.
i hate homework, but tomorrow after school that is my job.
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