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Saturday Feb 17, 2007

Feb 17, 2007
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i can't do this anymore.
tears streaming down my face, i am paralyzed. i can't move. i'm a mess.
wiping my nose on my shirt, not wanting to show the strangers in my living room my red face.
i can't explain it, but all of the sudden the anxiety is back. i can eat, but i can't do the homework, i can't clean, all i think about is how i can get out of here.
where i can go, what i can do.
i know it's the crazy talking, but...
damn.
i am so miserable tonight.


edit.
i can do this. i can totally do it. i have to be strong and look at the future. it won't be like this forever. it just won't. i'm 'a be okay.



In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... you said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
You said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,

Boston... where no one knows my name...
Where no one knows my name...
Where no one knows my name...
Yeah Boston...
Where no one knows my name.
VIEW 5 of 5 COMMENTS
admiral_pants:
Ought I to?

My schedule is pretty packed, but maybe next time I get to traveling.
Feb 20, 2007
admiral_pants:
Fuck, I would drag myself to Portland with my teeth to see Nala. Srsly. If I could do it this trip, I totally would.
Feb 20, 2007

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