schmelectra

no one ever comments here, no matter what i write, so i guess i blather about being sad and lonely here too.
i don't know what's wrong with me. i just feel so alone, even when i am with people that i could probably call my friends. everything feels so disconnected. I think i'm drinking too much. that could be the problem. i'll have to cut that shit out. it's easy to let it take control. easy for me anyway. it's upsetting when i don't see any other option besides drinking. i don't have to drink, but i like to. i know it fucks with my medication, but i had forgotten. that is quite possibly why i feel like shit.
i just want to be close to someone.i want someone i can confide in. someone i can tell secrets to. someone who wil hold me at night and let me cry in their arms for no reason. someone who won't need a reason, who will accept me as slightly damaged (but still fully functional) goods.
i wish i could find that person.