schmelectra

Fuck, dude.
i am so angry.
i am trying really hard to hold the crazy in, but it is getting really fucking hard.
i got a txt from charles this afternoon. he's the crush who mysteriously stopped returning my phone calls. he is who my las journal entry is about.
"So i got back late thursday night. Sorry i did not call while i was gone-i left my charger at home. did the rest of school go ok?"
WHAT!?!???
So... he went out of town and 'forgot' to tell me? i don't know if i buy that.
i called him and told him he should call me, and i am now waiting 'patiently' for a call that i don't think i'm going to get.
if he doesn't call tonight, i don't care what kind of excuses he comes up with. it's over. i still might not care what kind of excuses he comes up with. i don't know.
i don't know what to think.
i am so bloody confused.
i just want him to call so i can have this thing be resolved.
i thought it was...
i think right now, i am going to put the lappy away, take my meds, and drink a beer while reading david foster wallace in the bathtub.
and possibly cry a little.
for all of you who have my # feel free to call. the lines are open.