The day has grown old and I still have no resolution. I think that it is time to let it go, go get loaded tomorrow and make money. Money always makes me happy.
I am listening to alice in chains & black sabath. I know the means that I am feeling down, I bet with a good nights sleep I'll be all better.
"so theres problems in your life, thats fucked up, im not blind, im just see though faded super jaded out of my mind." AIC
your just see though faded, over rated, out of your mind." - AIC
"one day my brain bleeds, one day my head creeps."
you know it was about this time of the year that lane staley was found dead, I was in seattle that day. That left me with sort of a sadness because I knew that the man who had wrote so much music that had helped me to get through troubled times was gone and that there would be nothing more.
I think I am feeling a bit down too because I am not going to have the engine in my trans am this summer. I was really wanting to as well, but I have to build a new garrage first, and by the time that is done summer will be here, and I know that there is no way that I am going to be able to get it done before september. So I will wind up putting the engine in around october just when the weather is getting crappy.
well mabie it will work out to where I haul the car to cali and find a place to keep it there while I am in long beach. Of course though that might not be half bad having a super suped up trans im in socal. Will have to see what happens.
It is actually going to be good to get on the road again, going to run my but off and make money, I know that always makes me happy when my bank account is bulging.
I did get a ton of work done around the house this past week. It has been quite the couple of weeks though, I have been ultra stressed. It is kind of crazy, but I can always make myself feel better by working hard.
This is my anthem >>>
There's a shadow just behind me,
shrouding every breath I take,
making every promise empty,
pointing every finger at me.
Waiting like a stalking butler
who upon the finger rests.
Murder now the path called "must we"
just before the son has come.
Jesus, won't you fucking whistle
something but the past and done?
Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over.
Why can't we drink forever.
I just want to start things over.
I am just a worthless liar.
I am just an imbecile.
I will only complicate you.
Trust in me and fall as well.
I will find a center in you.
I will chew it up and leave,
I will work to elevate you
just enough to bring you down.
Trust me.
Mother Mary won't you whisper
something but what's past and done.
Trust me.
I want what I want.
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It is "Sober" by Tool. I find so much meaning in this song it is incredible.
Sometimes the temptation to fall down and wallow in self pitty digs deeply at my soft underbelly, yet I carry on and savy forth, burning into the night and on till morning. Never knowing, never seeing what the next day will bring untill it has come to pass. I know not what I do, only that my ambition is that of seldom traveled paths to a dollar store enlightenement. We should all be so lucky.
I am listening to alice in chains & black sabath. I know the means that I am feeling down, I bet with a good nights sleep I'll be all better.
"so theres problems in your life, thats fucked up, im not blind, im just see though faded super jaded out of my mind." AIC
your just see though faded, over rated, out of your mind." - AIC
"one day my brain bleeds, one day my head creeps."
you know it was about this time of the year that lane staley was found dead, I was in seattle that day. That left me with sort of a sadness because I knew that the man who had wrote so much music that had helped me to get through troubled times was gone and that there would be nothing more.
I think I am feeling a bit down too because I am not going to have the engine in my trans am this summer. I was really wanting to as well, but I have to build a new garrage first, and by the time that is done summer will be here, and I know that there is no way that I am going to be able to get it done before september. So I will wind up putting the engine in around october just when the weather is getting crappy.
well mabie it will work out to where I haul the car to cali and find a place to keep it there while I am in long beach. Of course though that might not be half bad having a super suped up trans im in socal. Will have to see what happens.
It is actually going to be good to get on the road again, going to run my but off and make money, I know that always makes me happy when my bank account is bulging.
I did get a ton of work done around the house this past week. It has been quite the couple of weeks though, I have been ultra stressed. It is kind of crazy, but I can always make myself feel better by working hard.
This is my anthem >>>
There's a shadow just behind me,
shrouding every breath I take,
making every promise empty,
pointing every finger at me.
Waiting like a stalking butler
who upon the finger rests.
Murder now the path called "must we"
just before the son has come.
Jesus, won't you fucking whistle
something but the past and done?
Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over.
Why can't we drink forever.
I just want to start things over.
I am just a worthless liar.
I am just an imbecile.
I will only complicate you.
Trust in me and fall as well.
I will find a center in you.
I will chew it up and leave,
I will work to elevate you
just enough to bring you down.
Trust me.
Mother Mary won't you whisper
something but what's past and done.
Trust me.
I want what I want.
<<<
It is "Sober" by Tool. I find so much meaning in this song it is incredible.
Sometimes the temptation to fall down and wallow in self pitty digs deeply at my soft underbelly, yet I carry on and savy forth, burning into the night and on till morning. Never knowing, never seeing what the next day will bring untill it has come to pass. I know not what I do, only that my ambition is that of seldom traveled paths to a dollar store enlightenement. We should all be so lucky.