Saturday Nov 08, 2003

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sorry for all the bad vibes ... but I've come to a conclusion that will has the least desired result but will maintain our friendship. Besides Im too much of an emotional wreck for her to even consider me IF an opportunity ever came up.

sigh

Im giving up on love for now. There are other things to concentrate on.
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zoe:
love is a sneaky bitch


xoxo zoe xoxo
surreal surreal surreal
keithyboy20:
OK, you can have 20 points, and this loooovely cupie doll!!!

ARRR!!!

Thursday Nov 06, 2003

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Love is the worst thing that ever happened to me.
what was I thinking I can't tell her
even though being around her kills me I value our friendship and if that changed I would be very much upset.
I've started writing songs about suicide... funny I always knew it would happen. Not that Im going to do it but venting about it seems to...
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xatreyux:
yeah this cd is bad ass, i love the song: Escape Artists Never Die its like my fave! and you think so? im scared to ask him because we're pretty good friends and that would suck if he was like "well your crazy" lol

kiss
cassie11:
Honey it will all work out in the end, it always does. Love does suck BAD its full of heartache and headaches but i just dont want u doing something crazy okay. One of these days u will get up the nerve to say something and if u dont maybe she will realize it. Well i have to get going, I love u sweetie try and cheer up okay love

Wednesday Nov 05, 2003

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OH MY GOD FROM AUTUMN TO ASHES ROCKED MY SOCKS OFF

I got to meet Fran Mark ... their drummer/singer

test now
that is all

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lil_billy_ben:
Kick ass, thanx thoes spikes were the shit. They're gone now....I'm loosin' hair at nineteen and I aint goin uot like Kelsey Gramar so I buzzzzzed it.
ryan:
oooh goodness, there are sooo many good songs...
i love 'while your waiting,' 'clavicle, 'you're dead,' 'blue in the face,' 'steamer trunk,' 'trouble breathing,' 'you've got so far to go,' umm pretty much i love every album, most all the songs... those are my ultimate favorites tho.. .and the cover of the cure's 'exploding boy' rocks too! hehe.. i'm such a nerd... biggrin

Saturday Nov 01, 2003

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I have decided. I am going to tell her how I feel. The truth hurts too much to hold back, now the question is when, where, and how? I'll bet you think this is a mistake but you don't know how much it hurts me to hold this back.

In band news, we've finally discovered how to record everything except drums in as close to...
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grandillusion:
Our lives are on some kinda parallel course or something. Only I'm a little ahead of you. DON'T tell her shit, nothing good can come from it, trust me, I know!
_jailbait_:
Oh i'm so excited for you!! You know what, if you feel that you can handle the conseqenses(maybe they'll be good, bad who knows) then you will probably feel a million times better. Get it off your chest before you go insane

Sunday Oct 26, 2003

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I feel like I have something to say but can't find the words to say it exactly.

being on shrooms for the first time yesterday was quite an experience. I believe I could have died almost falling off a cliff. That kind of thing should change a life but it hasn't changed mine, but yet I can't stop thinking about it. We were climbing a...
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_jailbait_:
well thats not so bad.. one out of the two people i was never in love with and that bothers me enough so i can't imagine adding more to my list. So falling hard isn't nessisarily a bad thing although it can be a lot harder on the heart frown
fractal:
Happy Halloween!!

Thursday Oct 23, 2003

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I give up
I can't spend another hour with you, but I'll hold on to every second I can get.
if you felt a tenth of what I feel I could feel at least one tenth better
and pull myself out of the deep that I have put myself in. over you.
I can't keep allowing myself to do this
or the idea that I...
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lil_billy_ben:
Are you really the guy from scattershot?
sexygenie:
Just wanted to stop by and say hi...love your taste in music wink Story of the Year was just here...they'll tide me over until The Used hits the road again!

Saturday Oct 18, 2003

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Recording has begun!!!

today at band practise we have started to record music. I at first thought I sounded like shit .. but it started growning on me after a while. Although this initial recording we have all agreed is garbage anyway and we are going to perfect our recordings as we learn more about it.

but by November 27th we should have a 5...
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tiamat:
you are such a sweetie. kiss

i say: you will be a success!
i kind of like that ackward feeling where you want to touch someone and make a move but you know you can't. the frustration makes me all you know... blush
germany:
wow you really do spill your guts... i'm proud of you.. i'm so glad i'm finally back on the internet.. it makes my life a bit easier being able to talk to the masses and here great stories and comment from you. i always wonder if there is someone secretly watching my every move...that would be cool, i think.... maybe i'm just way to in to that spy shit

Saturday Oct 11, 2003

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So I thought I wouldn't be on the computer much ... but the monotony of being @ home and having nothing to do leaves me no choice but to go onto my parents really old, really slow computer and try my hand at writing a new journal.

so far so good. Further than my computer at school has gotten me. I wonder why it wouldn't...
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hopesfall:
dude if playmate of the year is the only song you have heard by them then you should check out more, cause there is mass fucking better shit then that song, and yes nice video, it has boobies
ltrain:
shit.. i'm lonely even outside of my bubble. what would be the difference... wink

i always get the girls who have a boyfriend or are married. i suck. why can't i find a decent girl??? i guess decent girls are hard to come by. someday....

i feel you...

no woman, no cry...

Sunday Oct 05, 2003

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I want to blare my new from autumn to ashes cd and let everyone know how I feel,

I wanna sit and read the lyrics while listening to the songs and sing along at the top of my fucking lungs.

Im feeling much more odd then even.
I'd break in two over you
I just don't know how to communicate.

I love this band ......
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ltrain:
from autumn to ashes!
i really dig that song... short stories with tragic endings!

yes! in fact i was an alien! heh. how on earth did you guess that was my costume?? you can't see my alien star antennas in that pic. hmmm were you secretly there??

ok.. thats all... enjoy your new music.
lighthammer:
When I see you I see a very cool guy with an awesome taste in comics and movies. Plus you got that whole good looking rocker thing going for you.

Fuck-buddy!! Woo-hoo!!
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