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So hey whats up everybody this is just some random ranting time for yours truly ... enjoy

So I guess you'd all want to have known how the Moe's Tavern show went. Weeeeelllll after a car accident, my getting there far too early, meeting some cool guys in other bands and some hot groupies for another band we took to the stage and put on the best show of our lives. People were congratulating us and shaking our hands and we were only the first band on. We hung out till the last band and only watched a few of their songs as it was 2 in the morning and we were ready to book. But playing shows is now my most favorite thing in the world to do. (since nobody is knocking down my door for sex/making out) but there was an incredible girl there who was friends with our drummers girlfriend and so the four of us /me/her/drummer/drummers GF all hung out afterwards and of course drummer and drummer's GF could tell I was into her so they kept making funny faces at me. It was weird I wonder if she picked up on it too... but since she is amazing and beautiful I doubt I'd have any chance with her.

"won't you think Im pretty when Im standing top the bright lit city" (The Used)

"Its so hard to impress and stay relevant when the words come out wrong" (Even When Empty)

and speaking of which ... even though I am setting myself up for a fall I feel like I can't give up on CD store girl until she tells me that she wants nothing more to do with me. Although that would hurt that would finally bring pure closure to this ... I can't escape the thoughts in my head right now because she right there and accessable I could go in there anytime and see her and hope that she would start talking to me or that I could finally think of the right thing to say to her. I wanted to invite her to the Moe's Tavern show but like I had said in the last entry she was on the phone and made no apparent gesture of recognizing me except for a possible mention of my name and my being bitter to someone on the phone. Of course the feeling of being pathetic to think of this so much also creeps in and then I become ashamed knowning that Im being obsessive and Im not that kind of person... I don't want to seem like Im becoming creepy buy showing up all the time to just look around... although buying stuff does prove that I had an intention of going in there... maybe I have used up all my options in this situation and should leave it alone. fuck!!

"sometimes it hurts so much to loose the one you love" (Stabbing Westward)

"Do you remember the time we spent arm in arm?" (Even When Empty)

I think it is time to start putting serious thought into getting my tatoo done. The design I want is pictured in my pictures section .... although Im not exactly aware of the whole process it takes to go get a tatoo done. I'd feel like a poser walking in there acting like I knew what I was talking about ... plus theres the fear and my incumbant allergy to pain. but then pain is only temporary and tatoos look so nice.

"Pain is only a pulse if you just stop feeling it" (Coheed and Cambria)

"like an eventful moment in my life I can feel the end is getting closer the end is catching me" (Even When Empty)

My head is a little dizzy maybe I should just stay in my bedroom forever reading comic books and listening to music. People tend to suck these days and I get the impending feeling that Im being judged everywhere I go ... even here I imagine that there are lots of people judging me .. no doubt negatively based on what I write here. bah!

and oh shit Kiscica left. what a sad day this is
I hope she can find it in her to come back SG won't be the same without her here. She was the first SG I ever had the pleasure of meeting in real life and one of the only two SGs that I met that acctually talked to me like I was a normal person and didn't leave me feeling like some poser who wasn't in on the SG thing enough for her to speak to.. The other one Anouck is also no longer on this site.

till next
Same Scatt Time, Same Scatt Channell

music: A Static Lullaby: lipgloss and letdown
mood: my mood is kinda a rollercoaster ride the past few days... been feeling good then bad then good again.