scattershot

I dressed myself up real nice, combed my hair to look just right, built up my confidence and went into see CD store girl.

final analysis: She does not remember me or does not care enough to want to talk to me beyond a hello (that a regular customer would get)

I am truly sadened.. but I at least got some good prices on some cool stuff. I got the new Killswitch CD for 17 bucks story of the year for 13 and bill and teds excellent adventure for 10 DOLLARS!!!!! on DVD but alas someone who was once the girl of my dreams not remembering or recognizing me was truly sad. but now all I can do about it is mope for a little while and put it behind me. I don't think she even deserves my sadness but then who knows she was on the phone as I was buying the stuff.

Oh well at least Even When Empty is playing a show at Moe's Tavern tonight... a pretty big venue for local bands they even have a marquee Im gonna see Even When Empty in a marquee tonight.. hopefully, thats what the guys tell me I've never been to Moe's. They said that I should expect to giz my pants when I see the stage so Im gonna hold off on the masterbation today. lol.

I guess thats all today is a bit of a mixed blessing.

music: Currently playing AFI track 3 on Sing the Sorrow.
Mood: I haven't loved and lost I just lost (hmm Im gonna use that as a song title)

I must also confess that I am curiously going over the fact that I thought CD store girl had said my name over the phone to her friend she was talking to and then said that I was really bitter.... but then she smiled at me when I bought my shit like a regular customer. I dunno... I don't understand how to deal with this situation and maybe its not over yet.