This journal entry may not be funny. Those of you who came here for a laugh .. discrestion is advised.
Can someone please tell me what the fuck is wrong with me. Why is it that when friends don't talk to me I immediatley think its because they don't like me anymore.
but then in two days of interaction with a group of "close friends" I have been cold shouldered, shuddered, and what feels like discarded. I mean this people are my best friends that I have right now and I don't get any type of conversation with them anymore besides hello and hi. fuck I even fell for one of the girls in this group really hard and now its like she won't even look at me very much. WHAT THE FUCK. I feel like I did something that I don't know what and can't take it back because I don't know what it was. When I ask them if something is wrong they are just like no.. and then continue to look away from me and give me that ice cold shoulder.
today
Scattershot: Hey, how'd you find that test I thought it was really easy
Friend 1: Yeah me too.
Scattershot: So you did well?
friend 1: mmhmmm
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(dots equal a long pause of just standing around)
Scattershot: Here comes (friend2(girl I really really like)
Scattershot: How are you
friend2: ok
............................................... .......
Scattershot: you guys are really queit today? something up
Friend1 and 2: no
.......................................................
Scattershot: Hey (friend2) your boyfriend didn't like my CD (in sarcasm)
Friend2: Oh well to each their own
Scattershot: Riiiiiii iiight
................................................... ...
Scattershot: Are you guys waiting for anything?
Friend1: Just Friend 3
Scattershot: Okay then I'll see you guys later.
friend1 and 2: no response as I get up and leave.
am I just being paranoid? might it be exam time stress... but talking with a casual aquantence today made me feel like more of a friend then they did. It makes me sad and makes me not want to talk to them every again. I feel like they don't need me or want me anymore and Im being discarded.
in other news I played a few tracks on the straight screaming version of our cd and 4 out of 5 people absolutley loved it. the 5th was that girls boyfriend who said "it wasn't his thing... and he didn't like it very much" to each their own I suppose.
I need some cheering up.
music: Dillinger Escape Plan - Baby's first coffin
mood: I need some cheering up ... my best friends seem to be discarding me. I suppose this wouldn't be the first time though.
I just bought the raddest fucking atreyu hoodie in the world. I feel slightly better.
Can someone please tell me what the fuck is wrong with me. Why is it that when friends don't talk to me I immediatley think its because they don't like me anymore.
but then in two days of interaction with a group of "close friends" I have been cold shouldered, shuddered, and what feels like discarded. I mean this people are my best friends that I have right now and I don't get any type of conversation with them anymore besides hello and hi. fuck I even fell for one of the girls in this group really hard and now its like she won't even look at me very much. WHAT THE FUCK. I feel like I did something that I don't know what and can't take it back because I don't know what it was. When I ask them if something is wrong they are just like no.. and then continue to look away from me and give me that ice cold shoulder.
today
Scattershot: Hey, how'd you find that test I thought it was really easy
Friend 1: Yeah me too.
Scattershot: So you did well?
friend 1: mmhmmm
................................................ ......
(dots equal a long pause of just standing around)
Scattershot: Here comes (friend2(girl I really really like)
Scattershot: How are you
friend2: ok
............................................... .......
Scattershot: you guys are really queit today? something up
Friend1 and 2: no
.......................................................
Scattershot: Hey (friend2) your boyfriend didn't like my CD (in sarcasm)
Friend2: Oh well to each their own
Scattershot: Riiiiiii iiight
................................................... ...
Scattershot: Are you guys waiting for anything?
Friend1: Just Friend 3
Scattershot: Okay then I'll see you guys later.
friend1 and 2: no response as I get up and leave.
am I just being paranoid? might it be exam time stress... but talking with a casual aquantence today made me feel like more of a friend then they did. It makes me sad and makes me not want to talk to them every again. I feel like they don't need me or want me anymore and Im being discarded.
in other news I played a few tracks on the straight screaming version of our cd and 4 out of 5 people absolutley loved it. the 5th was that girls boyfriend who said "it wasn't his thing... and he didn't like it very much" to each their own I suppose.
I need some cheering up.
music: Dillinger Escape Plan - Baby's first coffin
mood: I need some cheering up ... my best friends seem to be discarding me. I suppose this wouldn't be the first time though.
I just bought the raddest fucking atreyu hoodie in the world. I feel slightly better.
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it got to the point where i was shunned for no reason, or the reason was so bizarre that i couldnt take the pettiness anymore
sorry to hear about your troubles..i think you and i would make a good one-two punch
have you heard that Muse song yet? its kinda weird...
Lisa
Hope you feel better.