scattershot

Homework, or update journal.. thus the eternal question goes on.

this will just be random thoughts while I work on a project for my applied selling class.

for all you hardcore fans check out Skycamefalling. They have my interest, this song The Nothing and this other song called Of Adornment and Disgust are pretty good.

speaking of hardcore, the girl in walls of jericho has the allure to her. Even though shes not really hot I think shes hot. Something about a girl that can scream hardcore as good as I can if not better.

The show is getting closer, yesterday my throat was sore and that was scaring me but it feels all right now. I have a sore on the inside of my mouth thats bugging the shit out of me... its a marla a sore on the inside of my mouth that I know would go away if I'd just stop tounging it but I can't. Like when you have a sore throat you have to keep swallowing to check if its still sore.

I really have a tendancy to write long entries don't I. but you don't mind do you?

So I pulled a funny move and asked some peeps to be on my firends list without asking them... thats very un-scattershot but I figured what the hell Im trying to get their attention and this seems like the only way after a buncha non-responses. But Im starting to learn that this website is a bit of a hypocrasy.... but I won't get into that cuz I love the site and I love the friends i've made on the site and one day hope to meet most (if not all) of you.

I had my second dream about avril 2 days after I wrote that thing in my journal. Its kizmet I tell you. kizmet. lol.

Speaking of girls, I ran into a girl that broke my heart and didn't know it. She was working at the local CD store in Milton and I was home for a doctors appointment, anyway I walked in saw her there and immediatley turned and walked out. I feel bad cuz I would have liked to have talked to her... but I wouldn't know what to say or if she'd even remember me. She looked a bit warn down since last I saw her .... and I look a lot better since then. Almost un-recognizable. I guess one day I'll walk in there and talk to her... the summer break is comming and I'll be home the whole time.

Did I mention the show is getting closer... eep butterflies. But then if I didn't have butterflies it would tell me that I didn't care and I want to care enough to push myself to do a hella-good job.

well I guess thats it. Wish me luck on school stuff and band stuff

peace out home-slices

music: Killswitch Engage - World Ablaze
Mood: Busy working on school stuff, nervous about show.

God-dammit Im having a hilarious conversation with this girl that I am in love with's boyfriend... god-fucking-damit-it-all-to-hell. I don't want to like this guy .. he is my enemy but hes very much like me.