So I've been thinking about this for a while... and Im not exactly still sure how to say it.. but I've been wondering about my position on this website and my feelings about it as a whole.
When I first joined I wanted to see naked ladies, I was at the age where I could legally see nekkid ladies and was like cool this website has the kind of girls that I like... I have never gone after the barbie types. I mean in grade school when everyone was after this girl Laura-Lee who was a total premadonna whore I was interested in her friend Lauren who was goddessly beautiful in a burgeoning punk rock way. On my senior trip to Rome I fell for a girl who had pink hair at one time and wore t-shirts with toilets on them .... while meanwhile a very nicely dressed club type girl was trying to hit on me. (but my failed attempts at love are not the point really) ... I wonder, Dave Grohl said the exact same thing on the site and got prasied... I wonder if people will care that I said something like that.
..back to the point. hahaha I've started to notice little nuances and what to me seem like hypocrisies of this website. I guess that is to be expected with the amount of people here. In my last journal I asked the SGs (at least the ones that read my journal) what they really thought of the memebers.. and none of them answered. Usually on my journals I have at least one pink post before I hit double digits... but on this one none. Its probably nothing. The basic point Im trying to make is lately I feel like a paycheck instead of a person on this site. I understand a lot more now that as I am a paying member I get treated nicely because I am adding to the SG pay counts. Although maybe not... Im not sure.
maybe my tenure here is comming to an end... or maybe Im just thinking too hard. I've been through a lot on this site and have met a lot of rad interesting beautiful people .. at least on the internet and a handful in person. I don't want to leave and don't plan on it yet but latley I just find myself less excited about paying 30 bucks every three months and feeling less enthused about this as a whole.
I don't know.
When I first joined I wanted to see naked ladies, I was at the age where I could legally see nekkid ladies and was like cool this website has the kind of girls that I like... I have never gone after the barbie types. I mean in grade school when everyone was after this girl Laura-Lee who was a total premadonna whore I was interested in her friend Lauren who was goddessly beautiful in a burgeoning punk rock way. On my senior trip to Rome I fell for a girl who had pink hair at one time and wore t-shirts with toilets on them .... while meanwhile a very nicely dressed club type girl was trying to hit on me. (but my failed attempts at love are not the point really) ... I wonder, Dave Grohl said the exact same thing on the site and got prasied... I wonder if people will care that I said something like that.
..back to the point. hahaha I've started to notice little nuances and what to me seem like hypocrisies of this website. I guess that is to be expected with the amount of people here. In my last journal I asked the SGs (at least the ones that read my journal) what they really thought of the memebers.. and none of them answered. Usually on my journals I have at least one pink post before I hit double digits... but on this one none. Its probably nothing. The basic point Im trying to make is lately I feel like a paycheck instead of a person on this site. I understand a lot more now that as I am a paying member I get treated nicely because I am adding to the SG pay counts. Although maybe not... Im not sure.
maybe my tenure here is comming to an end... or maybe Im just thinking too hard. I've been through a lot on this site and have met a lot of rad interesting beautiful people .. at least on the internet and a handful in person. I don't want to leave and don't plan on it yet but latley I just find myself less excited about paying 30 bucks every three months and feeling less enthused about this as a whole.
I don't know.
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unique3:
feel better soon! 
jj_r0x0rz:
awwwwww.....yer a person 
well i enjoy seeing you on the net and leaving you messages!
well i enjoy seeing you on the net and leaving you messages!