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Saturday Oct 18, 2003

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Recording has begun!!!

today at band practise we have started to record music. I at first thought I sounded like shit .. but it started growning on me after a while. Although this initial recording we have all agreed is garbage anyway and we are going to perfect our recordings as we learn more about it.

but by November 27th we should have a 5 song demo/e.p. to give to the masses at the deftones concert of the same day.

Im soooooooo infatuated with that girl I mentioned in my last journal entry. I spent time with her today just me and her and it drove me crazy cuz I wanted to tell her how I felt and then just give her a big passionate kiss and assuage these fears and feelings that I've been feeling that bring my temporary world down. But I can't because above all else I value her friendship ... I'd rather have her as a friend then not at all. But it hurts so much to hold back.

in school .. my math midterm turned me around, bent me over and made me its bitch. I was in shock afterwards .. felt like I was going to puke, cry, or pass out. I may have gotten 5% if Im lucky. But my other midterms went well enough at least I feel like they did.

I wonder if Im going to be a success, I wonder if I'll ever meet anyone to acctually fall in love with who will return it, I wonder if my parents are going to disown me for not being exactly what they wanted ... ... I just wonder.
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tiamat:
you are such a sweetie. kiss

i say: you will be a success!
i kind of like that ackward feeling where you want to touch someone and make a move but you know you can't. the frustration makes me all you know... blush
Oct 20, 2003
germany:
wow you really do spill your guts... i'm proud of you.. i'm so glad i'm finally back on the internet.. it makes my life a bit easier being able to talk to the masses and here great stories and comment from you. i always wonder if there is someone secretly watching my every move...that would be cool, i think.... maybe i'm just way to in to that spy shit
Oct 22, 2003

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