okay so I have an hour of drinking before band practise and since I don't drink very fast it'll be good enough to loosen me up to try some new personal stuff in front of the guys. I still have a lot to learn about being a singer/front man.
I am feeling very unimportant right now. The thought occured to me that my life is worthless and I could just throw it away. But then I suggested to myself that that was stupid. I really don't think residence is gonna work out for me. I get the notion that Im gonna come out of here very depressed. Theres something about me that has to change but Im not sure. I need to be taller, thinner, more attractive, smarter, something. But Im already pretty smart, and I guess there are less-attractive people than I am. I can't help the taller thing and I don't feel that fat.. so what is it?
sigh
if only there was SG land where people could live and hang out and meet everyone and all that. I'd be there in a second. I wonder if I would fit in there at all? Probably better than I do here(residence) at least.
Okay now for the good parts about this. There are some really rad people here and I have been having some fun at least. Yesterday we all played this drinking game odly enough called beer and I ended up saranading everyone with whatever CD was being played. Throughout the night I was singing U2, Good Charlotte, and Ozzy Osbourne.... I made a right fool of myself but it was fun.
I feel like a bit of a jerk for falling for this girl who has a boyfriend but all my guy friends tell me to wait it out and see what happens ... chances are since we'll be around eachother a lot that things could change between her and her boyfriend. I think thats just wishful thinking.
classes start soon and I'll get to meet some new people. I think Im getting tired of my roomate. He already found a girl and they were in the room last night ... its a good thing I was passed out from beer or else I would have been pissed this morning cuz apparently they were pretty noisy. god-damn-diddily-iddly-crap.
okay I know Im pissing people off with these last few upseting entries so next time I'll write about something positive, k.
I am feeling very unimportant right now. The thought occured to me that my life is worthless and I could just throw it away. But then I suggested to myself that that was stupid. I really don't think residence is gonna work out for me. I get the notion that Im gonna come out of here very depressed. Theres something about me that has to change but Im not sure. I need to be taller, thinner, more attractive, smarter, something. But Im already pretty smart, and I guess there are less-attractive people than I am. I can't help the taller thing and I don't feel that fat.. so what is it?
sigh
if only there was SG land where people could live and hang out and meet everyone and all that. I'd be there in a second. I wonder if I would fit in there at all? Probably better than I do here(residence) at least.
Okay now for the good parts about this. There are some really rad people here and I have been having some fun at least. Yesterday we all played this drinking game odly enough called beer and I ended up saranading everyone with whatever CD was being played. Throughout the night I was singing U2, Good Charlotte, and Ozzy Osbourne.... I made a right fool of myself but it was fun.
I feel like a bit of a jerk for falling for this girl who has a boyfriend but all my guy friends tell me to wait it out and see what happens ... chances are since we'll be around eachother a lot that things could change between her and her boyfriend. I think thats just wishful thinking.
classes start soon and I'll get to meet some new people. I think Im getting tired of my roomate. He already found a girl and they were in the room last night ... its a good thing I was passed out from beer or else I would have been pissed this morning cuz apparently they were pretty noisy. god-damn-diddily-iddly-crap.
okay I know Im pissing people off with these last few upseting entries so next time I'll write about something positive, k.
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edea:
yay for smoking!!!!!!! 
skoicat:
where is your show?