scattershot

I went from a really great mood, to a really shitty mood all in the same fucking day within a 12 hour span. I had a good morning, got my used dvd died my hair blonde thinking it would make me look like zack morris for this party I was still thinking of going to .. but Im so shattered now I don't think I will be ... and the hair looks more like john feldman from goldfinger than zack morris.

The Used dvd got me pumped... those guys have so much energy it almost channels into me when I watch it.. I was running around screaming and singing along... You know what Im a pretty fuckin good singer.... some of these kids on the dvd were singing and they sucked ass... I was matching bert on most of what he was doing and I think thats pretty rad of me.

Then I had pizza and watched a tape of wwe smackdown from last night... pretty cool so far.

Here's where things start to go down hill. My buddies and me go out to this club called the amazon, or the amazonian or some shite like that. I had three energy drinks ealier cuz I was zoned out for some reason. I guess the used dvd drained my energy lol. Anyway two of my friends are arrogant pompus jerks ... but I like em cuz they are fun most of the time. I can't have fun with them in a club scene cuz they think they are better than me and I tend to believe them cuz I have no self esteem whatsoever. So we're sitting ... drinking.. well I wasn't drinking cuz I was feeling sick combininig beer and those guru energy drinks. So then people split off and started trying to hit on the ladies and left me alone to fend for myself .. remember what I said about no self esteem. So there I was with one other friend of mine who doesn't like the club scene either and we are bored out of our minds and being treated like the black fucking plauge... like the fucking sars virus or anything... you know what fuck you I am the nicest fucking guy you'll ever meet, Im pretty decent looking and I have a pretty good sized cock since some people care about that more than anything.. Im a good conversationalist and Im everything you could ask for in a guy, I even dress nicely ... but fuck you if you don't see that ... I am sooo fucking pissed off at people I am sooo fucking pissed off at the world...I feel soooo rejected by everyone and everything right now. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU AAAAAAARRRRGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!! !!! !!! !!!!

just thought I'd share that with you.
but I wrote a song that the guys in the band like.