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Inquiring minds want to know.. well for all you curious bastards this is the situation that has made my heart sink in the past few days.

This story, l ike any story worth telling involves a girl. The most beautiful girl, at least I thought so. Long black hair, very sweet personality and she had a way of carying herself that drew my attention at every turn. But of course, my luck, she had a boyfriend when I knew her. The boyfriend was also a friend of mine ... arrrgh very frustrating. The boyfriend however does not know how to make a relationship work at every turn he was cheating on her and making her feel terrible, much to my chagrine she stayed with him, during this time I tried my best to remain as good a friend as I could I was sweet, charming, and as cute as I could be all the while hinting that something better was right in front of her, and even she said that if she wasn't going out with this guy she would go out with me. until finally she caught him in the act.

So yay the breakup happened. However, my terrible luck would kick in. During the time she was living in Toronto and her personality changed. She became arrogant, conceited, and overly amourous. Aware of what she had to offer to the opposite sex for the first time, she wanted someone big, strong, and could grace the cover of some magazine somewhere. But I took my shot remembering the words of the past. It failed, excuses like "you're not good enough for me", "You're far too depressing and Judgemental", "Yeah in the past I would have but this is now and you're too weird for me these days"

I don't know if anyone has had to deal with something like that. To be brought up and then knocked on your ass. But get this.... Im the bad guy in this situation. To her friends I shouldn't have stopped talking to her after that. I didn't realize that no one cared what I thought. I blocked her on chatting programs and didn't answer her phone calls ... so now Im the bad guy in this situation. I may have just effed up a lot of friendships I had in the past because I let my feelings guide me.

So now you know in detail the situation. In other news my back is recovering well enough. Strangely though my kneck has become stiff, but not too seriously.

In music news the new Cold single "stupid girl" is in my head right now and Brand New "failure by design" is playing on my winamp right now, very strange. I like to sing along with my winamp The new mudvayne video is uber-cool but its the same song they released a while ago. No matter how many times they try Not Falling will not catch on the way they want. They just hit right into World So Cold cuz that song is uber-sweet.

Im going jamming on friday with some members of my old band, and my new band is getting together soon too. Hopefully the new band won't sound like ass .. none of us have heard any of us play before .. but thats where it gets fun really, and we are all friends so nobody will be a prick about it.

Finally ... wow five pages on my last journal. Im impressed but I have to give cred to Kiscica and Hopesfall for their numerous posts. Kudos to you guys.

Thats all for now
Till next
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