Thoughts and aberrations, February 23, 2004:
I've reconciled my love of aesthetics with my hated for consumer products by simply accepting that I'm a rabid hypocrite.
Our neighbours effectively break down into two easily labelled groups; snobs and redneck white trash. Amanda and I don't comfortably fit in with either. We'll never make friends in our neighbourhood.
I find I'm not attracted to anyone but Amanda. I find other women attractive, but I'm not attracted to them. Does that make sense?
My job is draining me of my will to look for another one.
I'm very tired, and I don't know why.
I'm also very angry, and I'm pretty sure I know why.
When I watch an episode of Angel on Space, it ends 10 minutes earlier than it does on the WB. Essentially meaning that when I watch and episode of it on the WB, I'm being subjected to ten minutes more advertising. I'm paying for the privilege of having cable for someone can try to sell me more and more crap.
Above stated hypocrisy has no bounds.
I don't remember when I stopped believing in God. He may have stopped believing in me first.
I know that I have had a profound positive impact on one person's life. I only know this because he told me that something I said had "changed his life, and for that I owe you more than I can repay you". I have no idea what I said to him that did this.
This journal entry is kind of a downer.
I've reconciled my love of aesthetics with my hated for consumer products by simply accepting that I'm a rabid hypocrite.
Our neighbours effectively break down into two easily labelled groups; snobs and redneck white trash. Amanda and I don't comfortably fit in with either. We'll never make friends in our neighbourhood.
I find I'm not attracted to anyone but Amanda. I find other women attractive, but I'm not attracted to them. Does that make sense?
My job is draining me of my will to look for another one.
I'm very tired, and I don't know why.
I'm also very angry, and I'm pretty sure I know why.
When I watch an episode of Angel on Space, it ends 10 minutes earlier than it does on the WB. Essentially meaning that when I watch and episode of it on the WB, I'm being subjected to ten minutes more advertising. I'm paying for the privilege of having cable for someone can try to sell me more and more crap.
Above stated hypocrisy has no bounds.
I don't remember when I stopped believing in God. He may have stopped believing in me first.
I know that I have had a profound positive impact on one person's life. I only know this because he told me that something I said had "changed his life, and for that I owe you more than I can repay you". I have no idea what I said to him that did this.
This journal entry is kind of a downer.
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2. Just so you know Big Brother chat is not filled with retarded chatters asking for cyber and conversations that look like this...
<AOL Luser> a/s/l?!?!
<AOL Luser> pres 239487239812.12323903284091238459709823749872987 and 23423/50984049871 if u like horses
<AOL Luser> omg! lol! omg! i was all like omg! omgomgomgomgomg!
OR like this...
<stalker> a/s/l!??!
<You> I'm busy right now.
<stalker> OOOOOOOOOOOH WHAT WITH?
<You> work
<stalker> i bet ur hot!
<You> uh, k
<stalker> TAKE OF UR CLOTHS! LOL! J/K!
<You> please die.
<stalker> wud u hav sex w/ me? i'm ugly tho lol!
<You> I'm going to rip off your appendages and beat you with them.
<stalker> im a guy!
And yes I did get that from thefunny.org.
Anyway, if it was like that I wouldn't chat there.
3. What is your first name? Tell me if you want. I won't ask for last name. My first name is Viktoria so it's not the first name people have a problem with. Only my last.
4. I'm still doubtful about that Czech guy but since you are so fukking nice I will just drop it.
5. I have MSN so if you ever feel like getting on to chat that would be cool by me. I know that you are not into cyber so I would feel fairly safe chatting to you. I'm also not around that much to hold you hostage to a conversation all day long. Yes some people have done that to me. Anyway, let me know.
Peace my friend.