scarslet

nobody loves me, oh well, mabye this is all getting old anyways, being sad is sucky, i wish a lot of things, sometimes life is just shit, and nothing can fix it, but i sure am a lot more miserable after being happy for a while, it's like, i have five days of so much fun and freedom and shit everything is great and i'm smiling all the time, then i go home, and all the happy days seem like a big blurry dream of what i wish i were doing now, the harsh reality that i really am all by myself without any friends for about fifty miles and to make things better i am one livingroom away from two people i dont really like, one person i absoultly hate and another person i just dont trust one wall away, this place is my own personal HELL maby that is melodramatic but shure as shit feels that way, so what is better Happiness that you miss to the point your in pain or, constant nothingness, neither up or down??? but noones here anymore so nevermind