scarlett

yes i realize it's sideways, but it looks better that way. in my opinon.
well things are looking a little up since my last entry. let's see...

-Gia and I have to be out of our apartment in exactly 7 days! I am gunna be staying with my friend Kendra the next town over, and Gia I think is moving to her grandmothers to save money so hopefully in the future we can all get a nice place again. So I really should be packing, since its only a week away, but fuck it.

-My health problem has cleared up, and confused the hell out of some doctors and nurses. Still not sure what is/was wrong, but at least its gone away now. Unforunately now I wait for the bills from the ER to come in.....

- my job problems are going to be non-existant soon because i am finally for once and for all, quitting. its been 10 years (and im only 22) at the SAME FUCKING JOB working for my father.. who i love to pieces, but its been one hell of a ride. i am applying at places starting tomorrow. im shooting for a drink waitress at a bar or club, until i get my bartending lisense next month. wish me luck!

- boy problems... could be worse. the ex and i are on really good terms. hes been letting me borrow his car since i crashed mine. hes being really nice, and im enjoying it. the new emo boy ive been writing about has been really sad lately and ive barely seen him. i think i officialy scared him away. its too bad because hes a real sweetheart, and totally cute. but he's going thru some shit as well, so maybe when he's happier we will hang out more. but in the meantime, yes, there is another boy. this one i really like, but i shouldnt. we already get into so much trouble together fuck, hes really hot. we have fun drunken adventures together, and he's the first person ive gotten 'stuck' to by kissing with lip rings. *dreamy sigh*. i wish i could kidnap him and go away somewhere far and just.... be together away from everyone and everything..... back to reality...

- Vegas = not looking good. Everything keeps getting progressively more and more unlikely. I hope I can save $ and eventually go there, because I'd really really really like to. Im so sad I might have to stay in NH for the Winter *shudders*

- Car!!! haha, this one's good. See, a couple weeks ago, the boy I mentioned above... him and I got into an accident (my fault) coming home from the bar, and my car was totally destroyed. I got it fixed, and on the WAY HOME from the MECHANIC, someone fucking hits me and its fucked up again. I didn't even make it home for a 10 minute drive. Sucks. Had to get it towed back to the dealership. I am just going to trade it in for a new car, sick of fixing it. I am buying a '05 Chevy Cavailer in Silver with black interior.... Its really nice looking, I can't wait. I totally thought I couldn't afford it but my payments only go up extra $15 a month... not bad? I get it Oct 1st.

just trying to put my life back together. hard shit. getting out of debt sucks, finding a job is going to suck, moving definetly sucks, and my stupid black heart has to go and like boys that it shouldnt...... that sucks the most! at least things are seeming to get better.

til next time,
xoxox
scarlett

ps Ryans new set is fucking hot, go show her some robot love!

"...Sitting around, reading Guns and Ammo, masterbating in your own feces? Do you just stop and go... WOW its amazing how fucking crazy I really am?"