scarlaa

If I had one wish it would be for people to see what I'm thinking. Sometimes what I see and think is so overwhelmingly wonderful, it can't be verbalized and I would love to share these thoughts. Thank goodness the snows are thawing within myself I am starting to feel content in most social situations.
I had made my energy very unapproachable and that made me unhappy because as a general rule I like people, I like their lives and I like to connect with them but had difficulty because it takes me a second longer to formulate language. One reason is I'm memorizing what's going on around me and noticing small things (reflections in surfaces, smells, faces) and not fully concentrating on the conversation at hand. Also, I was always a thinker, not a doer. When I was in third grade a girl on the bus who was in my class asked me why I was so quite. I replied, if I said everything I thought I would never be quite. She had no idea what to say to that. She was one of the doers; I envied the doer but not any more, that will never be me and I've come to terms with that. I'm now comfortable in my own skin...ummm brain rather. <3