So 40 minutes after my blog post which funny thing is on my "myspace", I get a call from the girl I have been seeing. I like her she's cool we get along really well but there are things that get on my nerves which have kept me from pushing for it to become exclusive. She tends to be overly aggressive . I mean she makes me feel stupid sometimes. I might mess up something or stumble looking for a word and she'll be like its ok and pat me on the arm like a kid, I'm like look, I'm not a fucking child. I went to my first concert with her and she's kind of the opposite of me as far as shows. I have no problem showing up right as the door opens and walking into the back to stand and watch were as she loves the idea of being up front on the rail with thousands of people pushing into her. They are kind of miner things but they are turn offs. She asked me tonight how I felt about us. I said what do you mean , I knew where it was going. she said " well people at work have been asking how my boyfriend is and I say hes ok and I wondered how you think of us". I was like well we're really good friends. I am not really looking for a girlfriend outside of me and you hanging out so its not an issue of am I going to move on. Part of me still kind of holds resentment from when I asked this same thing back in september after our first week of sex, and she was kind of in the position I am in now. I'm like what to do. I said I don't have a problem being boyfriend and girlfriend if thats how you want to look at it. I mean we basically are anyway, we hang out almost every night, we kiss all the time, we hug all the time and yes we have sex. So all the things couples do we do. we just didn't call ourselves boyfriend and girlfriend. It seems now that I am finally seeing what others were seeing. I am not in a rush to get married and therefore am not trying at a relationship, I will be the boyfriend, I'm not the kind of guy to go out hooking up so its not like I'm not loyal and who knows maybe we'll end up being a great couple. I just feel odd you know what I am saying.
