Feeling better Hurrah resolved issues but how things are gonna work out remains to be seen. been dl'ing music that helps alot. moods alot better lately. but as you are figuring out bi polar mania is hard to deal with at times. but nothing that cannot be helped with meds and therapy and counseling. all of which i am getting. talked to my brother , looks like he has decided to make a clean break , he is also getting theraphy. as he is alot calmer than i last remember him. as well as definately more level headed and sober. he even asked me if i had any Christian metal so that is a real step in a good direction. all in all it shocked me and the reunion was good. but as you know i wont let down my gaurd just yet. Trust is a big thing with me and i dont give it freely. been kicked around far to much.

In other news i almost had to kick some redneck bitchs arse in the grocery store yesterday, (nothing like a good ol fashioned beat down to lift your spirits) she and her man had to keep following me commenting on my hair and my gothic black clothes (which was simply a black tee and black slacks really goth huh?) and how stupid and how dumb i looked and she wouldn't lay off. so i just said as i walked out after paying much to her bewilderment. you know i like my hair and i am proud of it ,unlike you i dont have to put it on the night stand before sex. oooh she was fit to be tied at that one. LOL!
and because of all this and a good listen to the 69 eyes and alice cooper i am just gonna let my inner freak out of the bag. fuck it i may be turning 43 but ya know who says i can't have fun on my weekends?
and i have 3 day weekends!
screw this redneck town. i feel like having fun and i am a INDIVDUAL ok i am also manic. but fuck all that.
i can't repress who and what i am . and if i am from a different state of mind then the world is gonna have to adjust for once cause i have ajusted enough. it's your turn.