I AM SO TOUCHED Shinobi posted a pic of me and my daughted i thought i had lost. i nearly cryed when i saw it. I miss her alot, funny they grow up so fast and are gone before you realise it. i guess i miss her more because i never really had much time with her beings that she was taken from me at age 6 and i only got her back at age 17. not much time to be a mom at all for me. i guess you can say my children are the one thing that can bring the mighty scandi down to tears. i nearly went insane in the 11 years i was forced to live without knowing if they were alive or dead or anything. only to wake up may 2001 to a nightmare of finding my children abused and molested. and believing i was dead. my son may never recover from that. and it is hard for me. i am thankfull i have such a good man in my life who understands and help me through the not so good days 
thanks hon i needed the hug you gave me today with that pic.
thanks hon i needed the hug you gave me today with that pic. VIEW 4 of 4 COMMENTS
ash:
WOAH!! Jesus CHRIST woman, what god awful person took your children from you??? I cant imagine what Id do if something like that happened to me!!! I just .. cant even imagine the incredible amount of pain and suffering you must have endured in those loooong 11 years!!! Couldnt the police help you??? Im so sorry to hear this, but hey .. at least you have them BACK in your life now 
thats great news.
thats great news.
ash:
and I agree totally with what u said in my journal. I have always been one of the "thicker" models on this site, and I love it. Ill never sign to a modeling agency because of my size, they'd want me to lose a shitload of weight to get gigs and I refuse, I get all my gigs independantly, so fuck them! 
but as of now, I cant fit into my clothes!! so its a problem. hehehe. But u bet your ass that once I can fit into them agn, Ill stop losing weight. 
but as of now, I cant fit into my clothes!! so its a problem. hehehe. But u bet your ass that once I can fit into them agn, Ill stop losing weight.