Well still silent, 
this is really gonna suck. can't go to work if i can't talk and answer phones. if i don't go to work i could get written up. F----ing catch 22 here . but i can't force myself to heal any faster than what God allows. 
i hurt plan and simple. maybe it is time for me to move on? 
ok survey time.
If you had to choose between what you have known all your life even if you knew it wasn't what was right for you and the un known what would you choose?
would you leave home to follow your dreams?
if some one offered you a good paying job, and everything you could ever need money wise would you take it over being happy?
would you compromise your standards in order to keep a job?
would you keep a job even tho it is bad just so you can afford to see your doctor?
Yes i am trying to make a decision here i admit it.
honestly i want to give up and just get a job that brings me closer to my love. but language is a problem. i suck at Norwegian. and i am scared to admit it. and it is hard to focus and study when i am working so hard and getting so stressed and stuff. i honestly think my voice was taken so i could slow down a few days and think things over. 
truth is i want to be with Shinobi.
my Vampire.
this is really gonna suck. can't go to work if i can't talk and answer phones. if i don't go to work i could get written up. F----ing catch 22 here . but i can't force myself to heal any faster than what God allows. i hurt plan and simple. maybe it is time for me to move on?
ok survey time.
If you had to choose between what you have known all your life even if you knew it wasn't what was right for you and the un known what would you choose?
would you leave home to follow your dreams?
if some one offered you a good paying job, and everything you could ever need money wise would you take it over being happy?
would you compromise your standards in order to keep a job?
would you keep a job even tho it is bad just so you can afford to see your doctor?
Yes i am trying to make a decision here i admit it.
honestly i want to give up and just get a job that brings me closer to my love. but language is a problem. i suck at Norwegian. and i am scared to admit it. and it is hard to focus and study when i am working so hard and getting so stressed and stuff. i honestly think my voice was taken so i could slow down a few days and think things over. truth is i want to be with Shinobi.
my Vampire.
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scandi_rose:
in answer to shinobi's question. i allready am terminally short of cash, and living on the edge is something i am willing to deal with.
asrai:
yeah, I'm the same way most of the time On rare occasions I'll jump in with a crowd and have a blast at a party or something, but usually I feel most content with few close people.
On rare occasions I'll jump in with a crowd and have a blast at a party or something, but usually I feel most content with few close people.