All work and no fun can make you sick.
I've not been "RIGHT" for a couple of years.
On Paper I'm a Fucking role model,"He's got a great job and a nice Studio Apt. He's a great catch."
In reality ,I've given my soul/happiness for it all.
I could not relate to a person in a intimate way even if it
fell in my lap.(or on my D-ck) I joined this site as a joke at myself because its the only time I actually get to communicate with the opposite sex that's not "WORK" related.I'm too fucking scared to start a relationship .I forgot how to be myself.Thus Suicide Girls is like the shrinks' couch for this lonesome loser.
I used to have panic attacks before and after I left work,
The shock of the deprivation of REALITY was out of my control,and I'm no weak seed.Being at work on 9/11 kinda put perspective (More like Shock therapy) to everything and the attacks have become a memory. But now its just a movie I'm in. This city isnt the place it was when I moved here many years ago,All theFun ,Dirt,Art,
Creativity like me has GONE. only corporate Sex and the Shitty wanna -be Suckers.Most my friends have fallen to the wayside as well,This also makes me sad for I become entomed in my Ca-REAR.
I fear that all the people that know ME now are on this Site.
Sorry Aiden for venting ,but you opened this can of worms for me and I cant stop.
I hope you dont mind, But I'm going to post this crazy
diatribe to my journal.
Your fellow Friend in Pain
Scagnetti
skull
A.K.A Sad Ass Scott
P.S.
I'm at work writing this Horror show
with no sign of getting out.
So good at my job,
So bad at my Life.
I've not been "RIGHT" for a couple of years.
On Paper I'm a Fucking role model,"He's got a great job and a nice Studio Apt. He's a great catch."
In reality ,I've given my soul/happiness for it all.
I could not relate to a person in a intimate way even if it
fell in my lap.(or on my D-ck) I joined this site as a joke at myself because its the only time I actually get to communicate with the opposite sex that's not "WORK" related.I'm too fucking scared to start a relationship .I forgot how to be myself.Thus Suicide Girls is like the shrinks' couch for this lonesome loser.
I used to have panic attacks before and after I left work,
The shock of the deprivation of REALITY was out of my control,and I'm no weak seed.Being at work on 9/11 kinda put perspective (More like Shock therapy) to everything and the attacks have become a memory. But now its just a movie I'm in. This city isnt the place it was when I moved here many years ago,All theFun ,Dirt,Art,
Creativity like me has GONE. only corporate Sex and the Shitty wanna -be Suckers.Most my friends have fallen to the wayside as well,This also makes me sad for I become entomed in my Ca-REAR.
I fear that all the people that know ME now are on this Site.
Sorry Aiden for venting ,but you opened this can of worms for me and I cant stop.
I hope you dont mind, But I'm going to post this crazy
diatribe to my journal.
Your fellow Friend in Pain
Scagnetti
skull
A.K.A Sad Ass Scott
P.S.
I'm at work writing this Horror show
with no sign of getting out.
So good at my job,
So bad at my Life.
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molly:
As a workaholic, I agree. It's so easy to get lost in the game of immediate rewards that a job gives.
deathbypapaya:
you chew on them.