I can't remember the last time I was ever this sad. I cried the whole way home last night. I cried myself to sleep. And I never cry. I woke up with the biggest, blackest, emptiest pit in my stomach. I don't understand why my best friend in the entire world feels like I let him down.
I don't want to get into any details because then I feel like I am pissing all over our friendship. All I know is I'm the bad guy no matter what lately. I don't want to try to pinpoint why things have been a little bit different recently.
He comes before anything and anybody. Me and this guy are going to grow old together and be buried side by side. I love him so much it hurts.
Song of the day: Patti Smith "Pissing in a River."
"Everything I've done, I've done it for you. Boy I'd give my life for you."
On a side note, my lungs have been filled with mucas for over 3 weeks. I hope I'm not dying.
I don't want to get into any details because then I feel like I am pissing all over our friendship. All I know is I'm the bad guy no matter what lately. I don't want to try to pinpoint why things have been a little bit different recently.
He comes before anything and anybody. Me and this guy are going to grow old together and be buried side by side. I love him so much it hurts.
Song of the day: Patti Smith "Pissing in a River."
"Everything I've done, I've done it for you. Boy I'd give my life for you."
On a side note, my lungs have been filled with mucas for over 3 weeks. I hope I'm not dying.
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sawa:
I know everything will be fine. I am just sad for now. Nothing ever stays wrong with family. But thank you guys!
xfinchx:
Hang in there girl. My best friend thinks that I'm an asshole, and I think the same of him. That's what makes us best buds. Things will pick up in due time.